Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Becoming

"The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be... because of all I may become I will close my eyes and leap!" - Mary Ann Radmacher

I found this quote tonight and just loved it - A few nights ago, I was reading through one of my journals from college, and I remembered the overwhelming feelings I had at the time of the desire to become. To become somebody great, somebody gracious, somebody better than I was and then somebody better again. Becoming "the woman of whom I dream" - a woman of faith, of wisdom, of charity and love. I can also remember that there were times when I would see all too clearly the huge gap between who I was and who I wanted to become - and that did seem overwhelming! It still does! Maybe not so frightening because I know what 'I may become'! 

Some days, when I'm chasing Landon around the house, cleaning up the same messes and reading the same stories again and again... I feel less fervor for becoming. Maybe I'm just spreading it out between me and him. :) A little bit of being a bit better each day for me - in more kindness, more patience, more wisdom and love, and a little bit of teaching my son to love and learn and become himself.