It's better now

Roasting marshmallows at the fireplace :)

Sometime in the last few months, I came home from errands and found Jordan and the kids all in the kitchen - cooking dinner maybe or tidying up and having a dance party at the same time. I sat down to feed Isaac and watched them all dancing and working and tapped my feet along and started to cry when I listened to the lyrics - feel better now, it's better now.

And this thought has been with me every single day since Isaac was born.  The first two years after Porter was born were so hard  that every day I am filled up with gratitude for just how much better things are working right now. 

There's a lot I want to say about all this, maybe someday. A good deal has to do with sleep. To have a new baby and have some decent sleep at the same time is a miracle in my life that has shown me my Heavenly Father's love for me so tenderly. Being able to live these days with a clear mind and with greater capacity to care for and love my family has been such a wonderful blessing. 

Some days are hard. But more often it has been a great mix of hard moments and wonderful moments and regular moments all jumbled together as they should be.